by Christian Penn
In Psalm 51, David poured out the innermost thoughts of his heart for inspection before God. All of the sins, the fears and the hurts suddenly sprang forth from his lips as he revealed them to his God. That experience changed his life, and he became an altogether different person. It is after this that he wrote most of his sweetest psalms. The praise from his life dropped from his lips after he released the innermost being of himself for inspection by his Lord. There is something within us that desires to keep things within ourselves a total secret, but yet on the other hand, deeply desires to tell someone who really cares and will totally understand. It is as though we are afraid to really open our hearts to someone’s inspection, yet we hunger to really trust someone enough that we could open up our hearts. We desire to have someone who will really listen, someone that really seems like they are interested. We desire to totally share with someone our innermost self. Yet who would really understand us and never think the less of us, someone who wouldn’t make us feel foolish, someone so selfless that he would totally concentrate on those things in our lives, even at the expense of himself? It can be said that there are actually two people in all of us: the person within and the person without. Yet we seldom release that person within us and few really know the true being that dwells inside of our hearts.
Sometimes we hold it back as long as we can until we almost explode, and then we find a release with a psychiatrist, psychologist or an analyst. We may even share it with a friend, relative or pastor; yet far too often we feel threatened and foolish and sometimes even turn against those with whom we have shared these things out of our self-preservation. Sometimes we also find we were most at home or accustomed to being hidden and that strangeness of openness, opening totally that which is within us is awkward. We feel insecure, so we run back to the shelter of secrecy. Perhaps opening up that which is in our innermost self-scared us when we saw it and realized the fear, turmoil, and confusion that existed. So quickly we close it all up so that we do not have to face the ugliness of it all. It also could be possible that we have hidden the inner man so long that we really don’t know how to open ourselves up and find him. Oh, the anguish that results in our lives when this takes place; it often leads to the destruction of relationships, especially our relationship with the Lord. God is there. It is God’s desire for us to be able to open up with Him and share everything about us that in reality, He already knows. Yet by sharing it, there is something that happens within us as we release all the pressures and pour them out to Him.
When Jesus spoke to the woman at the well, she was obviously by nature of her circumstances, filled with many inward secrets, hurts, confusions and fears. First of all, she was a Samaritan and the Jews had a history of hating the Samaritan people because they were half-breeds. She was a woman, and in those days no man spoke to a woman in public. She was filled with past disappointments, sins, and failures. Five marriages had failed, and she was living with a man who was not her husband. Yet when Jesus came into her life, He knew all those things about her and he let her know that He knew them. When she ran back into the town and shared with the people what Christ had done for her, she said, “Come, see a man which told me all things that ever I did.” She had found precious release from all of those innermost things being revealed and she released them into the hands of the Lord. The relief was overwhelming.
Jonah had run from God, too. He was filled with anxieties and fears, but there in the belly of the whale, he began to recognize all of those things that were within. He prayed, pouring out his heart and releasing all of those innermost anxieties before his God. Jonah then went on to preach the greatest revival that has ever been conducted. Yet it took three days in that whale to bring Jonah to the point of pouring out all that he had to God.
Jacob came to a place in his life where he was forced to open up the innermost things of his heart to God’s inspection before he could become a prince with God. (Found in Genesis 32.)
Moses opened up his heart that was full of fears, questions and feelings of inadequacy to God. God turned them into something that He could use and allowed Moses to deliver His people out of Egypt.
Perhaps none of us will ever really draw close to the Lord in a special type of relationship unless we are really willing to share all of the innermost secrets of our life with Him. In a sad sense, we have failed to really enjoy the relief that would come to us if we would do what He has wanted us to do all along. Share everything! There is a tendency for man’s pride to prevent him from pouring out all of those things that dwell in his innermost self, even with God. Are we afraid that God won’t like us? Are we scared that God will find out something about us that He doesn’t already know? Perhaps nothing would enhance our relationship with the Lord like sharing everything within our innermost being.
God doesn’t want us to have any secrets from Him. Friends share everything. Have you ever noticed how open God is in His Word to those who are walking in His Spirit? Friends have no secrets. They tell their thoughts, their fears, their anxieties, and their dreams and hopes to one another. God wants to be our friend. You may say, “He knows it all anyway.” It always seems imperative to God that His men poured out their hearts to Him in a personal sharing of their innermost beings with Him in order that He may totally bless them. Something seemed to transpire in the lives of people when they opened up and shared it all with God. There seemed, from that point on, to be a much greater closeness with God than had ever been.
God wants to have the right to transmit those things within us to a usefulness in our lives that will bring Him glory. There are times when the things that are within us are to be used to produce great accomplishments for God if we would simply release those things to His control. He will take them and make them bring glory to His name and will use them to His fullest ability.
by Christian Penn
Article submitted to Independentbaptist.com